>The Approaching Storm

>I know I was supposed to blog everyday. But this week has been crazy. We had tornado warnings yesterday evening, at 2:30 am, approximately 8:30 am, and one at about 12:20 pm until just now.

The storm approaching this morning, ca. 8:30 CDT

Wonderful.

So today, I thought that I would talk about the approaching storm.

Tomorrow, I officially join the Church. (Yay!) And it’s sure to cause a ruckus thanks to certain people.

Have you ever been the cause or caught in the middle of the storm? (Figuratively, not reality.)

I have been, and I seem to cause them too. Quitting pharmacy school, staying here last summer, joining the Church…

Sometimes we have to do what we feel is right – what God wants us to do. I don’t care what others think. I’m here to do what God wants me to.

Amen, and amen.

>The Desert Place

>The desert is a big deal in the Bible. Moses escaped to there, found God and God’s purpose for his life. The Israelites wandered there after being freed by the Pharaoh until they found God’ land of milk and honey for them. John the Baptizer retreated to the desert and when he came about, began preaching of the coming of the Lord and baptizing peeps. Jesus went to the desert for 40 days to commune with the Father and get His bearings before starting His ministry.

I am going to set upon a prayer journey to discover what Christ wants for me. This initial prayer journey will be two weeks and begin today. My bedroom will be my desert, considering I will have to attend classes and don’t have money to travel. I will fast. I am going to disconnect my television, but not my computer or internet because I want to be able to share this journey with you. I will be reading doing readings of the New Testament, specifically of the Gospel of St. John (my favorite) and of the Acts of the Apostles.

I hope that through this, I will find God’s will.

Pax and God bless. Have a wonderful week.

>Barab’bas

>Last Sunday was Palm Sunday, as many of my readers know. So, for the Gospel reading, Fr. Joe read the obligatory lines of the Passion story:

Now the chief priests and the elders persuaded the people to ask for Barab’bas and destroy Jesus. The governor again said to them, “Which of the two do you want me to release for you?” And they said, “Barab’bas.” Pilate said to them, “Then what shall I do with Jesus who is called Christ?” They all said, “Let him be crucified.” And he said, “Why, what evil has he done?” But they shouted all the more, “Let him be crucified.” So when Pilate saw that he was gaining nothing, but rather that a riot was beginning, he took water and washed his hands before the crowd, saying, “I am innocent of this man’s blood; see to it yourselves.” And all the people answered, “His blood be on us and on our children!” Then he released for them Barab’bas, and having scourged Jesus, delivered him to be crucified.  –Matthew 27:20-26


Something really struck me in his homily that followed. He posed a very interesting question – one that made my mind jump to an answer in 2.5 milliseconds.

Who is your Barab’bas? What is your 30 pieces of silver?

Christ and Barab’bas
(I do not own)

Who would I take over Jesus? How much money would it take for you to forsake Jesus?

Well, huh. I can definitely relate to the first question. Heck, I’ve been there. To that place where all that matters is that other person.

When you’re in that place, there’s no God. There’s no Jesus. There’s no Passion (or passion of the wrong kind).

I was so caught up this guy that all I wanted was to hang out with him, acting goofy and drinking. (I felt like such a bad girl when I was drinking. It was back in high school and all the cool kids drank.)

I never want to be in that place again. It was awful and I didn’t know what I was doing. I was not in a good place.

I have not spoken to this boy in at least two years now, which is most definitely a good thing. But let’s just think-if I hadn’t broken off the contact, would I be where I am today physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually?

>Shoved In

>This is in response to the Bright Maiden’s Conversion Stories prompt for this week. I am not a part of this group, but do sort-of know these chicas. You can get more information about Bright Maidens here.


Pax and God bless.

Catedral San Isidro

It’s been almost six years since I was in the balmy seaside city of La Ceiba, Honduras. A beautiful city of contradictions. The quite fancy mall we went into  while two girls were getting treated for traveler’s diarrhea was surrounded by slums. Our hotel had dirty children running around outside and in the park across from it.

It was while there that I went to my first Mass ever.

It was Sunday morning. I was the only one of my roommates to get up for church. Fortunately I was not the only one; three other girls and one of our chaperons, Sue, were waiting down in the lobby. We took off around el parque to the church, el Catedral San Isidro.

I had never been to Mass before and the fact that it was in a mixture of Spanish and Latin was no help to me. Fortunately the others could sort of keep up and I just followed suit. So they were about a beat behind every one else and I was two beats behind.

I watched as the readings were proclaimed, as the homily was given and as some children performed a short song and dance routine. (I knew enough Spanish to gather that they had had a sort of vacation Bible school the previous week.) And then began the Liturgy of the Eucharist.

San Isidro

Nothing had ever felt so right as doing the sitting, kneeling, standing, kneeling dance that is involved in the Eucharistic prayer. The reverence, the need…It was reflected in all those grubby faces seated in the pews around my small group.

It was beautiful.

We joined the line for Communion and my friends told me to simply cross my arms across my chest to symbolize I only wanted a blessing. The priest, who was paler than the rest of the group, was obviously unfamiliar with this. He shoved a Communion wafer in my mouth. I quickly bypassed the wine and took off for my seat.

I was confused but happy. It was as though a little ball of joy was smothering my heart and soul and mind.

That one Mass changed me. I got home and started researching and learning about Catholicism. I soon realized that my beliefs were so very strongly in the Church.

It was almost two years later before I got to go to Mass again, and that was Easter Vigil. And it will have been almost six years later that I will have joined the Church and receive my true first Communion.

>Welcome

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Hi all. This is my new blog, CROSSroads. It is the story of my continuing faith journey, and I hope you enjoy my musings and laugh at my sheer stupidity that will make itself known. The posts below are from my old blog, Acting Acts 4:20, which was on Tumblr. I am deleting it because I feel like I don’t use its other features enough. So, I am back to here after a joint through WordPress as well. That blog is secular, and is still used on and off. You can view it at britestack.wordpress.com.

I hope you enjoy.

Pax and God bless.



Mary, Queen of Apostles, pray for us. My our faith in God, our heavenly father, ever strengthen. Instill in us the courage to spread the Good News in this age of self gratification. By your intersession, God grant us peace and grace.

>Profound Moments

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Originally posted to Tumblr about two months ago.

@jrculley (Just trying to tag this since I have no control over the Twitterverse)

Earlier, I was feeling all woe is me and crap, as I tend to do. It’s gotten especially out of hand this weekend as I have no car (my sister has it) and I have no way to go hang out with peeps.

Then I got a text message from my friend Culley.

How can I pray for you tonight?

Holy crap.

I always worry about praying for myself because I have a lot of messed up stuff from my past that’s still messing with me. (Ancient history, as I told Culley.) So I told him that I have so much stuff, to just pray for me in general.

Def. He know em better than us.

Yes, yes God does. So why do I feel the need to complain and tell God about my problems?

I need to be more like Culley and pray for others.

God knows, we all need it.

Sanctus, Sanctus, Sanctus

Dominus Deus Sabaoth.

Pleni sunt coeli et terra gloria tua.

Hosanna in excelsis.

Benedictus qui venit in nomine Domini.

Hosanna in excelsis.

Amen.

Remember, most loving Virgin Mary, never was it heard that anyone who turned to you for help was left unaided.

Inspired by this confidence, though burdened by my sins, I run to your protection for you are my mother.

Mother of the Word of God, do not despise my words of pleading but be merciful and hear my prayer.

Amen.

In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.

Amen.